I think I have it right

After years of telling myself that I was happy, and then completely falling on my ass only to realize what sort of hole I had buried myself in, I think I finally did it right. It's been a while since my last post, life has been keeping me busy. We had Thanksgiving at Tom's mother's house. I had to work, but I made a bunch of pies for the dessert table that appeared to be quite the hit. By the time I got there after work, my pumpkin pie had been reduced to a mere sliver. All was well, Tom and I had our own Thanksgiving a couple of weeks later. We had roasted turkey, stuffing, cranberry sauce, mashed potatoes, squash, broccoli casserole, rolls, cherry pie, and pumpkin pie. All made from scratch, and absolutely amazing. I got a little homesick and worried about how Christmas was going to work out with our current financial situation, and Tom pulled through. We went Christmas shopping on a meager budget, but put a lot of thought into everyone's gift. We had our own little Christmas a couple of days before the actual Christmas. Tom gave me a gorgeous black electric guitar, I got him an electronic drum set. My ultimate Christmas gift was a trip back to Maine for the holiday. It required a 30 hour drive through snow storms in upstate New York, but Tom got me home for Christmas. Once back in Missouri, Tom and I made Christmas dinner for his side of the family. Overall, I would say our first Christmas was an amazing success, and I look forward to many many holiday seasons to come.

I guess my overall theme, is that Tom pulled through. He looks out for me. When I tell him I love him, he looks me right in the eye and tells me that he loves me too, and I know that comes with the same amount of emotion I send his way. When I first came out here, I was convinced that I didn't deserve to be with someone like him. I even told him that, I told him that he deserves someone so much better than me. He told me he didn't want anyone else. Life in Missouri hasn't been easy, and at times it has been quite difficult. Money doesn't grow on trees, and I quickly learned the value of a dollar. One thing that can be said, is that I'm happy, and for the first time, in a long time, I'm learning how to be, and stay happy. So what if we have to stay in every week instead of going out to fancy restaurants? We are plenty happy spending time at home with each other.

Last night, Tom surprised me with a date night. It was our first one since I moved out here in August. He told me that he needed to give his friend a ride. I didn't even want to go, but he told me that he wanted me to go. We dropped his friend off, and then Tom surprised me and took me to an Indian restaurant followed by a trip to the IMAX to see Avatar. It was all absolutely amazing, but for me, the high point was during the movie, I was sitting quite comfortably with Tom's arm around me, and I realized something. I did it right. I'm happy, in love, and excited about the direction that my life is heading in.

That's all I have for now. We are heading into anniversary season. Tom won't tell me anything, but I know he has something planned. I love that boy. With all my heart.