Thursday, July 30, 2009

My Life v2.0

My approach to life has always been to hit the ground running. I always moved forward, got my hands dirty, and never looked back. From the outside, I was living the dream. I had an apartment in on the coast of Maine, married my sweetheart, and spent my vacations traveling while I pursued a double master's degree. Then, reality kicked in. I graduated and quickly realized that there is no way I could stay in New England and pay back my student loans. My marriage began to fall apart, and little by little I began to feel isolated from my family and friends. The bottom fell out of the proverbial bucket one day in November when I came home and quickly realized that my husband had left me for a girl that he met on the internet. In what seemed like a split second, my life changed forever.

Ten months after the fact, I have come to realize that the events of the past year for in fact for the better. On the night my husband left me, my mother told me that it is during the process of divorce that you learn who your true friends are. These words of wisdom are what carried me through the next couple of months. Her words sung true, an little by little my friends came out of the woodwork. In January, I gathered all of the strength that I could muster, and contacted a friend from my college days that I was not able to talk to during my marriage due to some drama caused by my ex-husband. My friend and I quickly rekindled our friendship, as though we never left off, and decided to take things further in the form of a relationship. The relationship has been amazing.

Tom has taught me to trust and love again. He has always played a supportive role in my life, now he gets to play that role as my boyfriend. In the next couple of days, I'm going to pack up my life in the back of my car, say goodbye to New England, and start my life over in Kansas City with Tom at my side. After my attempt to live a life of butterflies and rainbows failed miserably, I have been given the rare second chance to start over and try again. Only this time, I'm living for me.